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Marigold (deadmen Remix)

from The Marigold EP by Begonia

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Sitting in the bleachers
Waiting for my time
Crushes on all the student teachers
Searching for that perfect line
I always wanted to fit in
But couldn't sit in the role of what a woman should be
And when the girls came around in jerseys
Hard to play down I was weak in the knees

Remember how I felt back then
Scared to tell any of my friends
Was it contextual?
Or am I bisexual?

Standing on a church pew
Screaming out to something
Never wanted to hurt you
And I can't say all that shit meant nothing
I always knew I couldn't live up
Need to give up what they said I was called to be
And when you asked me to to choose between god and you
It's true, I chose myself and me

Remember how I felt back then
Sometimes I still feel it again
I don't really mind it
Still trying to find it
Used to lean on it like a crutch
Now I know I don't know that much
I might be unsteady
But maybe I'm ready

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from The Marigold EP, released September 14, 2023

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Begonia Winnipeg, Manitoba

As Begonia, Alexa Dirks has blossomed into an indie pop powerhouse who feels like music’s best-kept secret to her fans.

New album Powder Blue is out Feb 24 on Birthday Cake Records.

Begonia has been nominated for a JUNO Award and longlisted for The Polaris Music Prize. Her music has been on numerous Netflix & Oprah Winfrey Network, and NPR named Begonia as one of 10 Artists You Need to Know.
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