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I'm Not Dying

from Powder Blue by Begonia

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Thought I could never get higher
But I haven’t looked to the sky in a long time
I threw my phone in the fire so I could see the world through both of my own eyes
And I’m overtired from trying to tuck in
And sing to my sad thoughts
I may seem depressed but
I’m actually not

Cuz you ain’t on my mind no more
I can tell you that for sure
Shut it down and closed that door
And I’m not lying
Remember when you went away
Thought I’d never be the same
Now I’m smiling every day
And I’m not dying

Crossing your name out from every journal
I’ve ever had in my possession
Was never quite myself when we were together
And every day since I’ve learned lessons
You’re so self-assured
I can’t fault anyone taking a chance letting you in
Took a minute to get here
Now I’m finally forgiving

Cuz you ain’t on my mind no more
I can tell you that for sure
Shut it down and closed that door
And I’m not lying
Remember when you went away
Thought I’d never be the same
Now I’m smiling every day
And I’m not dying

Oooo I’m not dying
Holy fuckin’ shit
I’m not dying

Cause you ain’t on my mind no more
I can tell you that for sure
Shut it down and close that door
And I’m not lying

Remember when you went away
Thought I’d never be the same
Now I’m smiling every day
And I’m not lying

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from Powder Blue, released February 24, 2023

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Begonia Winnipeg, Manitoba

As Begonia, Alexa Dirks has blossomed into an indie pop powerhouse who feels like music’s best-kept secret to her fans.

New album Powder Blue is out Feb 24 on Birthday Cake Records.

Begonia has been nominated for a JUNO Award and longlisted for The Polaris Music Prize. Her music has been on numerous Netflix & Oprah Winfrey Network, and NPR named Begonia as one of 10 Artists You Need to Know. ... more

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