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from Fear by Begonia

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lyrics

My breathing can’t be regulated
Everything I used to love
Now I hate it
I can’t say it’s all because of you
But I’d like to

Seeing visions
Seeing stars
But when I search for higher meaning
It always feels so far
I can’t even say that i’m surprised
Should have guessed it the first day I looked into your eyes

Invited yourself
Over to my house
I wanted to love you
But i should have ki - kicked you right out

I will never go back
To who I was before
Living in darkness
Never feeling sure
And only from a distance
Could I set myself free
Now you’re nothing but a ghost just
Living in my memory

Maybe I deserve it
All this wasted time
Thinking that I earned it
But that’s not right
Some days I dig a little deeper
And some I hold it all inside
I am the only keeper of the demons in my mind

I know I’m not the only one
Singing tired songs of love
Getting all hung up
When I should be moving on
Obsessing over each mistake
Indulging in a heartbreak
Where every move I make
Is the wrong one

When everyday
Filled me with doubt
They said time is a healer
I didn’t think i’d see my way out

I will never go back
To who I was before
Living in darkness
Never feeling sure
And only from a distance
Could I set myself free
Now you’re nothing but a ghost just
Living in my memory

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from Fear, released September 13, 2019
Written by Alexa Dirks, Matthew Peters, Matthew Schellenberg

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Begonia Winnipeg, Manitoba

As Begonia, Alexa Dirks has blossomed into an indie pop powerhouse who feels like music’s best-kept secret to her fans.

New album Powder Blue is out Feb 24 on Birthday Cake Records.

Begonia has been nominated for a JUNO Award and longlisted for The Polaris Music Prize. Her music has been on numerous Netflix & Oprah Winfrey Network, and NPR named Begonia as one of 10 Artists You Need to Know.
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